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Dum Spiro, Spero (While I breathe, I hope)

it's a draco/hermione fic. enjoy and please vote for me!

Title: Beauty is Isabella Swann.
Author: Masqued/constantbedhead
Summary: Jacob doesn’t really know how to let go; nor does he have the desire to.
AN: Just another little prologue look into Jacob’s thoughts. If it gets a decent response, I’ll continue on.

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i still can't find my digital camera. it makes me unbelievably upset. and someone (i'm assuming pat's brother?) came in to tell us that pat missed us tonight while we were closing. made me and steph very sad. pete didn't really know pat, so, no big.

so yeah. can't find the camera.

i hate two girls at my job right now. let's call them... let's call them sharon and tiffany. i hate them both, because, yes, sure, i like to make fun of people sometimes too, but seriously? is it necessary to have such a disregard for people sometimes? i mean, sure, i'm the girl that feels sorry for that one guy in the tv-episode that has the door slammed on his face for no reason other than he's a lowly paid extra. or for the fat guy in kung fu hustle, when he's chasing after his friend just to hand him a soda, even though his friend told him to never come back.

and there's a certain store manager die a slow and painful death.

in other news, i think matt's more amazing than ever, my mom is starting to like him, not sure if she's told my dad yet though, and i'm in a bit of a better place. so, yes, life is moving up.

all i need to do now is find my bloody video camera!

there are...

okay, to the point, right? right.

for the first time in... months, i had a real, hardcore, everything's involved, things just exploded emotional breakdown today in matt's car. i feel like shit. over and over and over and over again.

i hurt justin.

i hurt aaron.

i'll probably hurt matt.

i'm just an all-around bad person.

fucking. ah.

whatever, que sera sera. si? si.

i'm just sort of done with caring. i know i keep putting the entire fucking world on my shoulders, and keep trying to do things that will make everyone else happy, but there's only so much i can do and i'm tired of not really having anyone else want to go out of their enough for me; i'm also tired of thinking i need other people.

i seriously am thinking of ditching icon and just buying a plane ticket and going to chicago instead.

seriously.

well. for those of you that don't know, I'm a harry potter nerd.

and well, I'm a mod on this role playing harry potter marauder site that only so far has three members. it's a hard-working site, with people with tremendous writing ability, so if you feel like having a look, check behind the cut!

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thanks for looking if you do! =] also, if any mods of any communities wouldn't mind me posting this add, I'd be more than thankful!

for all you supernatural goofs out there - my "play by" for Remus is Jensen Ackles. ;]

so right now, my biggest aspiration in life is somehow managing to get Jensen to kiss me.

theend.

I'm obsessed and have been checking ebay non-stop looking for Chevy Impala's in my price range. does this make me weirder than the rest of the people on the planet? 'gads, I hope not. really, really, really hope not.

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[sighs]

Title: Going Home
Author: constantbedhead
Fandom: Harry Potter
Pairing: Seamus Finnegan/Kale Cavanaugh(OC)
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1,050.
Summary: Sometimes, coming home is the best part about leaving.
Warnings: It’s slash. If that counts as a real warning, anymore.
Notes: Written for two of the loves of my life, Sneaks and Mika.
Feedback: Is love.

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...the first episode of season three for supernatural is called "The Magnificent Seven".

as in the old western in which like, four or five of the "seven" die before the end of the movie. I refuse to watch it, and my mom is still angry with my father for making her watch it, as she constantly loves to remind me. "well, why don't they call it the dwindling magnificent cowboys that slowly die before the end of this movie, except less melodramatic."

so yes. I was fairly entertained by this.

last week was one of the harder weeks of my life (parallel with the one that happened way back in february/march area, but that's a different story.)

uncle larry died of cancer that had spread throughout his entire body and had already paralyzed him from the waist down. I thought it was getting easier, to be honest, but tonight's episode of so you think you can dance had to go and change everything, because of that beautiful dance by mia michaels. I have no doubt in my mind that I'll get to see him again in heaven...

...it's the fucking wait that's killing me.

I've not exactly updated on here personally in quite some time, so I thought I would for the sake of myself (and the possibly-reading lj-pals I've got out there.)

life... it's pretty lame, so to speak. aside from the fact that I adore my job at B&N at the moment. well, only slightly adore it, as they've officially kidnapped me from books and have forced me to stay in the cafe until the hot coffee burns away whatever is left of my music-loving, book-needing soul. there seriously is an awful lingering taste in my mouth now-a-days at the mere mention of coffee. but their sandwiches are pretty nice, and the passion tea isn't so bad.

just wish my best friend would get back from being sick, as she's such a bloody mess what with that tooth having been pulled and her face all swollen. but soon we'll be sipping away at some white zinfandel and maybe some red, watching brokeback mountain and anything else that has adorable, sappy and yet mangsty stories for her and I to feast on in our self-betrothed loneliness.

well. not really.

so, I've got a new obsession with reading Sam/Dean and Jensen/Jared fiction lately. it's all a little overwhelming and substantially irate because now all I want to do is try out for American Idol, get famous and force both Jared and Jensen to marry me.

or at least propose to the entire CW that they should add a little-Wincester sister for the sake of drama and fun. please. I can play uber-well androgynous parts. ask not mark flynn. it will make total sense.

so now I'm off to write my family!verse fic-a-thon of sorts. which reminds me, if anyone out there wants to help be a side-along beta for this, that'd be fab.

ta, loves.

Author: Masqued/ constantbedhead
Title: Trying to Move On
Disclaimer: Sorry folks, don't own it. Or else things would be very different.
Summary: DH SPOILERS TO END. Sometimes it's hard to cope when there's a piece of one's soul missing.
A/N: Just one of my reactions thus far.

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Author: Masqued
Title: A Queer Yuletide
Pairings: A few are in here, but the prominent focus is Sea/Kale.
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Graphic sex (male), snogging, nudity and language.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Harry Potter. Man, bites.
Summary: It’s Christmas and thanks to Seamus’ girlfriend, he and Kale’s lives start to change – for the better.
A/N: I totally blame Sneaks for this, because she inspired me to do it. So ha.

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Author: Masqued
Title A Painter’s Nut
Pairing: Blaise/Luna
Rating G
Disclaimer Sorry, I don’t own Harry Potter folks. Sad, I know.
Summary Luna reminisces about how sometimes the charmer becomes the charmed.
A/N: I have to dedicate this to Becky, because she was my muse for this entire endeavor. Love you, Becks! =]

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faces of hogwarts
which f a c e can you t r u s t ?
It's the year 1998.
The wizarding world is in turmoil.
The Dark Lord, He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, has started a Second War.
Albus Dumbledore, the only one He ever feared, is dead.
Scores of Death Eaters are on the loose, killing innocents left and right.

And in the middle of this stands Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, undeniably one of the safest places in England, even without the protection of Dumbledore. It is here that parents send their children, to shield them from the horrors of the world outside. But even within the safe stone walls, the fear is palpable - the students, after all, continue to recieve the Daily Prophet, and news of the latest batch of deaths still circulate from mouth to mouth.

The Golden Trio is in school, forced by Molly Weasley, who bodily dragged the three to the station. Draco Malfoy is back as well, under the protection of the Order of the Phoenix - but that doesn't mean that anyone trusts him. The wedding of Bill Weasley and Fleur Delacour, which was to be a bright spot in a dark world, was postponed indefinitely, until the end of the war (what nobody admits, however, is that there might never be a wedding - that good might not triumph over evil).

But it seems that sometimes Hogwarts remains untouched by the constant news of death that transverse its walls. There are still the same old house rivalries (though magnified to an extent no one knew possible), the same old friendships, and, of course, the same romance. But no one quite trusts anyone else - anyone could secretly be a Death Eater, just waiting for a chance to carry out Voldemort's plan of destruction.

It's a dark time for the Wizarding world, there's no mistake in that. All that remains to be seen is exactly which face can be trusted.

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Title: Love Enough
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: Hermione Granger, Draco Malfoy, Harry Potter (still pre-any real relationship.)
Prompt: 042. Triangle
Word Count: 1,433
Rating: PG
Summary: He still watches them, but they see him, and he can’t help but need to protect them from everything and themselves.
Author's Notes: Second in an unknown amounted series; Sequel to Man in the Moon – Prompt 045. Moon

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Title: Man in the Moon
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: Hermione Granger, Draco Malfoy, Harry Potter
Prompt: 045. Moon
Word Count: 519
Rating: PG
Summary: He always sits and watches. She always watches him. He always watches her watch him.
Author's Notes: This isn’t a one-shot, it’ll be continued.

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Here's my fanfic100 claim for Gundam Wing of: Trowa Barton and Heery Yuy.

001.	Beginnings.	002.	Middles.	003.	Ends.	004.	Insides.	005.	Outsides.
006.	Hours.	007.	Days.	008.	Weeks.	009.	Months.	010.	Years.
011.	Red.	012.	Orange.	013.	Yellow.	014.	Green.	015.	Blue.
016.	Purple.	017.	Brown.	018.	Black.	019.	White.	020.	Colourless.
021.	Friends.	022.	Enemies.	023.	Lovers.	024.	Family.	025.	Strangers.
026.	Teammates.	027.	Parents.	028.	Children.	029.	Birth.	030.	Death.
031.	Sunrise.	032.	Sunset.	033.	Too Much.	034.	Not Enough.	035.	Sixth Sense.
036.	Smell.	037.	Sound.	038.	Touch.	039.	Taste.	040.	Sight.
041.	Shapes.	042.	Triangle.	043.	Square.	044.	Circle.	045.	Moon.
046.	Star.	047.	Heart.	048.	Diamond.	049.	Club.	050.	Spade.
051.	Water.	052.	Fire.	053.	Earth.	054.	Air.	055.	Spirit.
056.	Breakfast.	057.	Lunch.	058.	Dinner.	059.	Food.	060.	Drink.
061.	Winter.	062.	Spring.	063.	Summer.	064.	Fall.	065.	Passing.
066.	Rain.	067.	Snow.	068.	Lightening.	069.	Thunder.	070.	Storm.
071.	Broken.	072.	Fixed.	073.	Light.	074.	Dark.	075.	Shade.
076.	Who?	077.	What?	078.	Where?	079.	When?	080.	Why?
081.	How?	082.	If.	083.	And.	084.	He.	085.	She.
086.	Choices.	087.	Life.	088.	School.	089.	Work.	090.	Home.
091.	Birthday.	092.	Christmas.	093.	Thanksgiving.	094.	Independence.	095.	New Year.
096.	Writer‘s Choice.	097.	Writer‘s Choice.	098.	Writer‘s Choice.	099.	Writer‘s Choice.	100.	Writer‘s Choice.

Here's my fanfic100 chart for my Harry Potter claim: Hermione Granger, Harry Potter and Draco Malfoy.

001.	Beginnings.	002.	Middles.	003.	Ends.	004.	Insides.	005.	Outsides.
006.	Hours.	007.	Days.	008.	Weeks.	009.	Months.	010.	Years.
011.	Red.	012.	Orange.	013.	Yellow.	014.	Green.	015.	Blue.
016.	Purple.	017.	Brown.	018.	Black.	019.	White.	020.	Colourless.
021.	Friends.	022.	Enemies.	023.	Lovers.	024.	Family.	025.	Strangers.
026.	Teammates.	027.	Parents.	028.	Children.	029.	Birth.	030.	Death.
031.	Sunrise.	032.	Sunset.	033.	Too Much.	034.	Not Enough.	035.	Sixth Sense.
036.	Smell.	037.	Sound.	038.	Touch.	039.	Taste.	040.	Sight.
041.	Shapes.	042.	Triangle.	043.	Square.	044.	Circle.	045.	Moon.
046.	Star.	047.	Heart.	048.	Diamond.	049.	Club.	050.	Spade.
051.	Water.	052.	Fire.	053.	Earth.	054.	Air.	055.	Spirit.
056.	Breakfast.	057.	Lunch.	058.	Dinner.	059.	Food.	060.	Drink.
061.	Winter.	062.	Spring.	063.	Summer.	064.	Fall.	065.	Passing.
066.	Rain.	067.	Snow.	068.	Lightening.	069.	Thunder.	070.	Storm.
071.	Broken.	072.	Fixed.	073.	Light.	074.	Dark.	075.	Shade.
076.	Who?	077.	What?	078.	Where?	079.	When?	080.	Why?
081.	How?	082.	If.	083.	And.	084.	He.	085.	She.
086.	Choices.	087.	Life.	088.	School.	089.	Work.	090.	Home.
091.	Birthday.	092.	Christmas.	093.	Thanksgiving.	094.	Independence.	095.	New Year.
096.	Writer‘s Choice.	097.	Writer‘s Choice.	098.	Writer‘s Choice.	099.	Writer‘s Choice.	100.	Writer‘s Choice.